My 33rd Birthday and A Suprise Beach Trip.

The week leading up to this birthday has been one of reflection. Last year at this time I was a mama of a newborn, a mama who had drenching night sweats, crippling fatigue, neurological issues caused by what would later be discovered as large tumors, weight loss, no appetite and life altering itching. I was on the cusp of a shocking diagnosis, but for the moment was treated like I was crazy and sleep deprived by medical staff. Oh, what a difference a year makes. This year, I celebrated turning 33; I made it to 33. This age was never one I thought I would struggle to get to. Now, each moment is so precious, so beautiful, and I spent a few days reflecting on what has changed with cancer. I no longer accept less than the best on the big things in life. My marriage will be the best, and I will die on that battlefield. My children will be exposed to Jesus, and I will die on that battlefield. I will love my children fiercely and lavishly, not because I could relapse at any moment, but because even if I live to be 110, I want my children to know they were incredibly special. I am more quick to speak that compliment that scurries through my head, one that used to go unsaid. I notice people's pain, suffering, hurts and have much more empathy. While lounging on the beach watching my children play happily, I didn't have to fight for my health, and I don't take that for granted. All that said, yesterday was a biggie for me. I was surprised by Colin with a trip to the beach and later, a lighthouse. My boys also surprised me with this necklace, which I not only cherish for its unique beauty, but also for the proceeds going to help a woman fighting cancer. It's a constant reminder to be still and know He is God.

I snapped pictures like crazy yesterday as I took in all the awes of nature that left me speechless (and once again proved how big my God is) - the ocean, the cliffs, the fog and mist and grains of sand... all things I felt I truly never saw before last year.

Here are some pictures - we went to Cape Mears and Cape Lookout. 

 God's thoughts toward us outnumber the grains of sand in the world - isn't that amazing?!

 Cape Mears lighthouse.

 Abe doesn't care how dirty a piece of fruit may be - he will eat it anyway.

 We obviously gave up trying to keep Abe clean.

 I took this while laying in the sand next to Sissy - her curls to one side, Samuel running on the other. I love it!

 Sissy loved this ladybug.