Thoughts

I feel like I have been given a new lease on life. Not two days ago, I had so many thoughts rolling around in my head - one of them being "if they can't treat this, then I get to be with the Lord in heaven, right?". I really had to come to that realization and be ok with that. Now that I have hope (although I know that I still have a rough road ahead), things around me that I used to overlook seem so much more intense. Brighter, somehow. As we were driving to the Kaiser Interstate campus, I noticed the trees that have become a ravishing red with the fall weather. I linger over Abe's sweet little smiles and truly take time to enjoy them. I cup his face in my hands and notice how soft his skin is. I stare at Juliet's beautiful curls and run my hand through them - because I get to do that as many times I want in the years to come. And I will no longer take that for granted. Colin and I are talking about going to the San Juan islands next summer - normally I would say "no thanks - I loathe camping" but now I am willing. I need to experience life more. Because life shouldn't be taken for granted. I am going to lose my hair soon - and that's ok. It's a small price to pay for a second chance at this wonderful, colorful life.